Hidden and alone A struggle many of us know Although my family support is large It wasn't until I found people who could truly understand what I was going through that I decided to stop hiding. Never knowing that beauty was from within and what you see in the mirror is a reflection of your mind. A choice to see the flaws or the beauty. 19 years I carried the heavy weight of hiding. Locked away I kept all of the feelings I had. I went on with day to day life trying not to think about the part of me I was missing. Sitting alone with these feelings for if I spoke no one would understand and explaining it was exhausting. Blocking my feelings from coming through and hiding behind a wig and a smile. Always caring what people thought of me even though it was mostly made up in my own mind. Negative thoughts in my mind sitting on replay. Life has knocked me down more times than I can count and I use to say to myself - Get up, keep getting up, push the feelings down, let it go, fake it till you make it. Happy Tone Well Im done faking it, I want to be happy inside and out. And I don't want to push the feelings down I want to feel them, move past them. Truly move past them. Gaining strength and compassion through the struggle. I wanted to know who I truly was if I wasn't hiding. For so long I felt I was missing something that I could do more in this life. I looked within myself and blocked out the worlds views of what life is and what I should be. I began to see hope, hope for myself, hope for a better world and I found purpose. Gone are the days that I fear the opinions of strangers. The only opinion that counts is mine. Hiding under the wig no more for it is my choice to wear not societies. For I now know my purpose in life: To help shape a society that teaches love not hate. To support those just starting their journey. To stand up and show my true self because I am strong and will be strong for others. To share my story in hopes it comforts or inspires someone else. Love yourself, support others, don't hide who you are and find a way to be you and DO YOU!
- Kristen
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